That's my boy. I told him not to smile for the photo, so this pretty atypical of that bounce-around, hip-hoppin' side-winder. (And yes, he does come at me from the side. The boy loves to scare the bejeebers outta me, so much so that I practically pee in my pants!)
I have to tell you how happy I am. I am so excited, so content, so stressed-out (yep, contradicting myself) and I have so much confidence that the future will be AOK. There are so many gifts bestowed upon me, my arms are not big enough to hold them all.
I cease fighting — one of the best decisions I made thus far. I feel light and free, not looking back lest I catch the pallid scent of my past life, happy or not. That cavernous pain is too risky to be hinging on the edge of, lest a mere glance backwards trips me into its wide and deep mass grave of buried memories, better left forgiven and forgotten. I'm happier moving forward, forgiving — yes, even forgiving — and counting my blessing which are plentiful. I get "bad news" constantly. I have difficult things to face each day. They come quickly, like arrows sped from a bow. They glance off me, my shield held up indiscriminately. I have super human powers these days.
In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; Ephesians 6:16
I can't be bothered. There are too many grievous instances to let emotions delegate my day. NO... I'm happy, faithful, excited to see what God has in store for me next. These things, some of which are really quite big, are just blips in my radar screen. Sure there are things in my life that someone else might feel devastation over. Meh... I've been thru the wringer. Been there. Done that. Not gonna do it anymore. My weapons relinquished. OK fine. Let's cut our losses. Lets find another way. Lets see what the options are. I'm too tired not to be direct. I am not mincing words. I'm not wasting anymore precious time getting angry and frustrated, feeling sorry for myself.
There is a force that is arming me with a calmness and a sense of joy while at this very moment I'm walking thru one of life's most difficult challenges.
I have trust and I am expecting my life to be full of great things.